jennifer ranalia

I took some time away to meet my son. Easton is a great kid. His parents didn't want him to know the truth that i was his birth mother, but he was smart enough to know. His parents agreed to let him come spend a month with me in the summer. We are both looking forward to it. Not sure what to do with an 12 year old boy. We will figure it out a we go.

I found out where my son is. His name is Easton, he is around 12 years old living in Idaho with what seems to be a really nice family. I'm not sure if i want to disrupt his life. I'm sure he is doing sports and playing with his friends. I wanted my birth family to find me when i was younger, but then again my childhood was f'd up. I want to make the right choice for his sake Kinda nuts for me to be thinking about someone else for once I think i'm going to do it just because i think he could handle it now. He has to know he is adopted right? He looks like nothing like his parents of course because we are mixed race. (not that i'm racist or anything) Then again i have to explain the reason i had to give him up which again is f'd up. At least i know where he is and that is being well taken care of.

Good news...the cd is so close to being done and we are working on a video. Allie and I shared the vocals and leads. It's awesome that i finally am getting my voice out there for people to hear. This is my dream. I have my sister Allie to thank for that. Thanks sis.


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So am i up to my same evil ways... Of course. Allie and Lou moved in together. Make me sick. They are acting like nothing happened. If i was Allie he would have been long gone for sleeping with my sister. She is being stupid. I will just have to fix her of it. I have a great plan in mind to break her of her blindness.

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Yeah so i'm a selfish bitch. I need Allie to be alright so i can get what I need out of her. I could have called that she was going to have a break down or whatever you want to call what happened. Is she trying to hurt herself? I don't know nor do i really care. Now because of her drama i have to wait to get back into the studio with her. Jeezs thanks Allie. I think she is trying to make herself all up in the news to get attention. I have to give her credit that it was a job well done. Those poor kids of hers to have to deal with an unstable mother.

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I've been thinking a lot about my finding my son. There is no way he would want to see me. What 11 year old that has a stable life ( i'm guessing he does ) would want it disturbed by his birth mother that had to give him up. I would never get custody back unless he is still in the foster system. I think that's how it works. I would love to meet him but i can deal with just seeing a picture. I will have to look into hiring someone to find where he is if it's even possible.

Getting some studio time to record my first single! Thanks Allie! This is my dream to become a performer. I don't think it would be happening without the help of my sister. Isn't she great?


Private _ So what if i slept with my sister's boyfriend. I'm just that kind of bitch. ____End Private